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I read Kafka’s Die Verwandlung （變形記by 卡夫卡） at Elite Bookshop last night.

The leading character, 葛雷戈, was the mainly economic resource in the family. His father was retired and stayed at home with his monther, and his little sister was such a talented violinist that he planned to let her study in a musical college. The family depended on him heavily, that the reason why he sill took the job he did not like.

One day, however, he woke up, and found that he became an ant. That means he could not work anymore. What ironic was that his family became independent after his transformation. His father and sister found jobs and they rented an empty room for money; nevertheless, they did not take care葛雷戈 well because of the monstrous appearance. He died, eventually, and none of his family took look at his body, not to mention cried for him.

One person, used to be the important role, died, and the rest of the family get reborn. Because the rest of family had to survive, they needed to make change. Still, the way they treat葛雷戈 is really unethical, especially considering his contributions to the family.

「為了成就自己對愛的執念（obsesion），需要賠進多少人的人生？」這是我看我這本小說後的想法。

若跳脫小說裡關於裡的架構，不再將執念的對象局限於小說中的愛戀。執念的本身就是對目標義無反顧的追求，即便粉身碎骨也無所謂的極端行為。

仔細觀察自己與周邊的人，似乎各自都有自己執念，都有拼了老命也要得到都東西。

其實在我們眼裡只有想要的目標同時，也有許多人為了我們或多或少的犧牲。

人要惜福啊！

丁莊夢說的是河南愛滋村裡的愛、愁與死。

一群想富的農人在金錢物質的慾望與血頭的慫恿下，捲起袖管來賣血，最後一個個都得了「熱病」。

此現象牽涉到的問題很大也很廣，各地領導到每個居民都脫不了干係。

血頭有錯。唯利是圖，不顧村人的生命，拿著使用多次的針頭扎在一個個遇見的村民。口中聲聲說著賣血絕對安全，自己卻不賣血。

村民有錯。不甘終生貧窮，又盲從無知，看見「賣血模範村」的人們因賣血而開始有錢蓋樓，聽見臂上滿是黑點針疤的婦人驕傲地說賣血的好處，說一日不抽血渾身就漲得不對勁，就真的興起了「有為者亦若是」的精神，開始做這項能賺錢又能保健康的活動。結果自己卻便能成了血頭的蓋樓的財源，終究拖著一口氣留在村內等死。

雖然我並不認為作者的筆法及用字有特別過人之處，但書中成功地寫出熱病村民的眾生相，將人性的醜陋、沉溺及大愛等表露出來。在尾聲處又給了個大地回春的願景，也可看出作者的宅心仁厚。